Coming home from ET we felt wonderful. We had beautiful embryos, had learned that fertilization is likely our issue and had overcome that with ICSI. We felt young, knew our fertility was proven and felt we had so much going for us. That feeling prevailed for that day and the next.
Thursday was harder. I took it really easy for the first two days, but had to get back to doing some things that day. I felt worried, wondering if each thing I did was "too much." At the same time, outside of being busy around the house, I had been cooped up all day (and the day before and the day before). Plus I had a dry throat and felt like I was getting sick.
Friday I knew I was sick, but I joined a two week waiting forum on IVF connections and had people to talk to, not just about the milestones in our treatment, but the day-to-day happenings of waiting. Then I got a call from the RE's office letting me know two of our embryos had made it to 5 day/blastocyst stage and had been frozen and they were really happy with that. I was too. That night we took our daughter A to see "Horton Hears a Who" at the movie theater. I nearly teared up at the ending. That night watching M*A*S*H with S I did cry. The hormones had to be getting to me.
One night when we checked the placement of the PIO, blood came back into the syringe so we had to change the needle and try again. Wow! That spot was so sore it woke me up in the early hours of the morning. Luckily it only took two days to get almost totally better.
Saturday I had several things going on. The worry was nagging, but I was busy and it didn't overcome me.
Sunday meant going to church and seeing lots of babies and kids. It meant interacting with many moms, but trying not to talk about being a mom. It was really hard and I came home feeling really worried that if this isn't our cycle I really will be disappointed and there will be much to endure. Luckily my mom called in the evening and was a listening ear that helped to alleviate some of the anxiety.
Today I woke up feeling completely normal -- even my PIO injection sites didn't hurt. I was really worried, so I posted on the forum asking others who had been successful if they had signs & symptoms before their betas. I am thankful for this forum and the peace of mind, or at least kindness it has given me in tough moments. The reply from several was that they hadn't experienced any symptoms this early. I also made myself see sense and remember that when I was pg with my dd, I definitely didn't feel anything this early. I feel much better this evening.
From what I've read on the forums, about 8 days after a 3 day transfer (8dp3dt in IVF lingo) you can start getting results on a HPT. I'm going to try and hold out until Saturday (maybe Friday). We'll see if I can. I am currently 6dp3dt in IVF lingo, so it is getting really close.
Then there's this. It could be nothing, but it could be something. I decided to go for a 3-mile walk today with a friend as I felt walking isn't very strenuous and I needed to get out of the house. Since the walk I have been exhausted. I feel like I've been working in the yard all day long and just came in, but all I did was go for a 3-mile walk. It could just be due to the inactivity of last week, but maybe not. Here's hoping.
I love the pictures of our little embies they gave us at the RE's office. We put them on the fridge and when I look at them it feels real. It is real and those little embies should be pretty much snuggled in for the long haul at this point if they're going to stay. Oh hope, hope, hope.
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